Like a seamonster, all pretty under the waves.
After so much struggling on my own with this, I finally decided to use my old friend, Weight Watchers Online again. Today is day 3 of using it. I can't believe I thought I could apply the theories and rules of weight watchers on my own without tools. Even though I used it for 14 months when I lost weight before I got pregnant, I totally need to be reminded for these rules to work.
So, day 3 and I am surviving, but it is difficult. The first time I lost the 70-80 pounds, I ate the same thing everyday for a long time until I got the hang of it and saw some initial weight loss. I am doing the same thing now and am so hungry! Last night I had dinner at 6, and didn't go to bed until 2 am, so you can imagine how hungry I was and the kind of struggle I had with not eating anything after dinner. I know, I know, I could have had something small. But what is the point of doing this if you can't take every opportunity to do the right thing, ya know?
I love Weight Watchers online because it is a tool, not a diet. It is a religion almost, a way of life, rules to follow. And I don't have to hang out with anyone who just needs to lose 10 pounds. No meetings. No silly food plans. Just tools to figure out how much to eat and to log it. I signed up for a mere $60 for 3 months, cheap compared to the lame meetings.
I feel like I am detoxing and this is rad.
So this is where I have been... First picture is me, the fattest ever about 5 years ago. Second picture is me the week I got pregnant with the girls after losing around 70 pounds. Third is me about 20 pounds ago. Fourth is the current me. I hear a lot of fat people say that they wouldn't be a new person if they lose weight. This is just stupid and naive. Do you think I was a different person from picture one to picture two? Hell yes.
I can't wait to add the last picture to this list. I want to meet her. She is in here underneath, waiting. Like a seamonster, all pretty under the waves.
Fattest ever (5 years ago, over 300 pounds).
I was too fat to fit in the picture and wore a Men's XXL.
The week I got pregnant (70 pounds down).
And I have to say, my best fashion day ever.
4 Months ago at the beginning of the Great Smallening Two.
And last week. Doesn't tell much cause my face is far too thin for this body.
Comments
What do you feed the girls? Is it the same as what you eat? I always cook for the hubby. The problem is that hubby is picky and not much into eating right. That means sometimes making something different for Isabelle and me. Ahhhh so much trouble... I tried getting him to eat vegetables once. He refused even after I tried to say he should be setting a good example for Isabelle.
How do you do it?
Posted by: Kuky | June 12, 2007 7:46 PM
hi!
i feed the girls what i eat, plus other things. like, if i have grilled chicken and brocolli for lunch, they have the same plus cheese or plus mac-n-cheese. they also love noodles of any kind, so i will add that.
for breakfast, if i have fruit and ceral, they have the same plus mini pancakes.
and at dinner we all eat together.
jeff has a colon condition that makes it so he can't eat cheese and lately since he is not in remission any longer, barely eats anything. before that, he would eat what we ate, but add chips and salsa or pita and hummus for extra food.
the girls won't eat meat. just chicken and are allergic to eggs, so this makes it hard. they love tomatos, though and cheese.
i would say just make sure you feed her lots of grains (wheat noodles!) and fruit and a few veggies and you will be fine.
it is hard!
Posted by: tina | June 12, 2007 9:59 PM
I may have said this before but I just wanted to say it again.....what you write here is valuable and precious. You have busted a lot of myths about weightloss. In a world that is getting increasingly bigger you are a beacon of sense and simplicity. It isn't rocket science nor is it easy...I know as I am going through the same process. You are very brave laying yourself open like you do, being so honest and I hope you know that so mnay people get so much out of what you write.
Posted by: Samski | June 13, 2007 6:35 AM
I want to eat cereal and fruit with you. But I can eat a bucket of fruit, so watch out. You guys are around in July, right? Still planning a trip, without actually planning. Second week of July sound good to you? We can sweat together outside in the mucky air. I hope Ani and Rachi like me.
sorry to hear that dh's condition is not in remission right now. that sucks.
Posted by: eileen | June 13, 2007 9:11 AM
Good job! Again, I find your words inspirational.
For me, it's all about normal sized portions. The few weeks of intense nausea in the middle of this pregnancy really helped me to be able to pare down my portions. I still need to add in more veggies, but I think we're doing a slow and steady job here.
As it stands, when the baby comes out (any day!), I will automatically weigh less than my pre-pregnancy weight. Add in a couple years of breastfeeding and better eating habits (plus walking my son home from school every day in the fall - the walk is about a minimum of 20 mins one way)and I should be well on my way to cracking 200 by the new year. (My current pregnancy weight as of Monday: 275. Starting weight: 264.)
Posted by: mamaloo, the doula | June 13, 2007 10:02 AM
you have only gained 11 pounds in pregnancy!!! amazing!!!
thank you for sharing and being honest and rad. i love to know that i am not the only one. i am so ready to be done with this. as we all are.
you are rad, mamaloo!
Posted by: tina seamonster | June 13, 2007 10:09 AM