238.5 and I am starting to hollow out a little in my tummy and on my legs. I am recognizing the me from the end of the first Great Smallening again and this is encouraging. I have been very good with the food, ignoring opportunities to over eat and making myself too busy during the day to snack. I also tried this thing for a few days that I heard director David Lynch say in an interview maybe 10 years ago. He said he eats the same thing everyday. This frees up your brain to plan for things other than food. so my days have been filled with wheat chex, peachs, blackberries, hard boiled egg, grilled chicken, wheat pita, feta cheese, pickles, repeat, repeat, re-eat. This makes food less something to look forward to because it won't be a surprise and truly turns food into fuel rather than fun.

I don't really feel like the 238.5 is very stable, that I will perhaps go back up to 239 for the next few days before I find 237. This is how it has been going. And it makes me think of the people who start a "diet" and stop after no change in a month. People need to be more realistic. So, I am about 36 days or so in and I am down 11.5 pounds from start weight, about 15 since Thanksgiving. And this is pretty awesome. And I am starting to get mad at people in my life who can't seem to make this change, too. I hate this phase of life change, the wanting to yell at every other person who is eating too much pizza. But it happens every time with me. I just want to say, "if I can do this, there is no reason that you can't." But it feels mean and self righteous. Maybe in another 30 pounds, I will start the preaching. For now, I am just hollowing out, quietly.