Still 243 this morning. I had a bad day today, though. It involved little red fish. Oh how the little red fish love to call my name. At least they have no fat, but still. They are red fish all the same.

I am working on a little timeline of my weight loss to remind me of things. My weight loss ticker is so great because it shows me where I am going, but it doesn't remember where I have been. And the reality is that if you look at my weight loss as a whole, I am actually half way there. I started at around 300 pounds in 2003. Lost about 80 pounds, got pregnant, gained it back and am down 60 pounds from there. This is extremely encouraging. When faced with the bag of little red fish, it is easy to forget that you have been a force of nature in the past. It is hard to remember how invincible you can be. It is hard to remember just how fat you once were and how far you have come and how some day, a year from now, you will feel bad for the fat girl eating the little red fish. You will smile, though, and wonder how you were ever that person.