It is 11:06 and I am tired. I have too many jobs and this keeps me up. I have declared a war on debt and hospital bills. I will win this war and then will be able to sleep and make quilts and capes and silly hats. I know that three years from now this will be my truth, so I press on. It isn't as hard as working in an office. I need to remember that. As always I need to remember a lot of things. I have fought this debty war before and I have fought this weighty war before and I know how to win wars. But I still get emotional about them. I need to get past the emotional part and get to the fighty part. I feel like I am getting there.

Before I got pregnant, my friend life was full of boys. I liked this friend life. It was easy. And I was always fun fun funny me. But when the babies started growing in my tummy I lost some of the boys. Not all, but some. Not the most important, of course. The girls in my tummy took away the sadness of this loss. Today I found myself surrounded by new friends, all girls except one little one whose mommies are awesome. I like this change. I am gathering girls and keeping them in my life and it feels better than my old life. I am gathering girls near and far. I send packages to the ones I can't touch and I gather them from across the sea.

Is there a new you in your life? Do you dig her?

Rachi wears two hats. One summer on top of one witch hat. I dreamt this. Except future Anya was at a party wearing two hats, waiting for her sister. I wonder if they are getting mixed up in my soothsaying. Rachi can now say "octo" for octopus and "Adi" for our door man Adisu. Ani says, "no no no" and "shhh". They are new girls everyday.