I am drowning in contract work, but all I can think about is making things. I have been thinking of making things that I don't yet know how to make and this is both exciting and frustrating. This is the first time in about 4 years that this has happened to me. I think it was 4 years ago that I started to make the little collages on wood that I loved so much. I have nearly stopped those, except a new batch of mirrors that I made for Crafty Bastards this year. I think the original batch of collages were about 60 or so. I have maybe 10 of them here on the wall above me and maybe 10 more unfinished in the closet. So there are 40 out there that people bought on the original website or at the first Crafty Bastards.

I started making those collages even before I had a website to sell them on. I wasn't sure what the point of them was at the time. I just needed to make them. I needed to write, "We are all pretty girls" or "We prefer telepathy" on a piece of wood. I needed to glue hundreds of tiny things, bits of my life, bits of trash to wood. I didn't know why. I would finish them, and leave them on the guest bed in our old apartment. I even gave some to a friend, I wonder if he still has them. Sometimes I want them back. :) Do you have one of those collages? Could you send me a picture? I miss them and wonder who you have. I started the store so that I could sell them and get them off of the guest bed.

So, right now, I am itching to sew. And I don't know how to and I fear I won't be good at it. And what I want to sew is on a huge scale. I want to make something really big and interesting. I want to make a quilt, but not a regular quilt. I want it to be something completely new. I want to cut out the biggest letters that I can. I want to write things big. Then I want to go to sleep under it.

It is weird. I have felt a little numb, silk screening the old sayings on shirts. But that zombie shirt woke my ass up. I am brimming with new ideas and I wonder what is up with me. I wonder if it is the 10 pounds down. I wonder if it is being in the Craft Mutiny and being inspired by all the indie craft gals in my life now? I wonder if it is meeting the folks at Crafty Bastards this year? I wonder if it is working with Scott on drawings and the idea of doing a children's book together. Whatever it is, it is rad.

What are you thinking of making? What are you making? Make something new. It will make you new.