People from the past have been showing up lately. Some of it has been Jeff's doing with his crazy Myspacing. But others have to do with my blog. I am easy to find on the web because of it. Is this happening to you, too? How do you feel about it?

It started a few months ago when my best friend from 1st grade emailed me. I think she might have found me on classmates.com or something. But what a lovely surprise. We shared all these memories of our 6 year old selves. I loved that she remembered things that I didn't and vice versa. We used to make these tapes, like radio shows. And I would use this weird voice and said I was the Tiddy Bowl Man. It is a disturbing memory, really. Cindy was my first best friend. We shared all of this time together, singing in her big bedroom. I remember the way the light came through her window and how we loved this song by Roseanne Cash. Then one day, she moved away and was lost forever. She made me think about how, as a mom, I will have to make these kinds of decisions for my girls. I mean, right now I am taking them out of daycare and they can't vote on whether or not they get to stay. Will they miss their friends? Probably not yet, but what about in the future? I thought having infants was hard. I think navigating the politics of friendship for twin six years will be even more difficult.

So the internet is delivering my past to me. Within the course of a week, I have spoken to both an exboyfriend from college and a close friend from high school. Both relationships ended on poor terms, but with time all of that craziness has seemed to evaporate. I love this. I love reknowing people. I always miss people who leave my life. Mostly because I tend to either become very close with someone or not close at all. I am an all or nothing kind of friend. And as I get older, I seem to find comfort in people who knew me when I was younger. I wonder what this is about. It is so interesting to talk to someone you haven't seen in 14 years because you know this former them and if the friendship was close, then you know the core them. But then they have this time that you dont' know about. It is almost like Dr. Who. I know the Doctor. I have watched like 30 years of Dr. Who. But I don't know all the inbetween stories. I don't know about the Time War, ya know? I can just see how it has changed him. I know this is a fictional character, but really this is what this is like. I know these people and who they used to be, but am intersted to see who they became. And how they got there on the way.

This makes me think about this dream that I had where I found a time machine and decided I would go back in time and get actors in the past to come here and box office battle their current selves. Like John Cusak from 1989 came back, made a movie and it was box office gold. Meanwhile the current oldish John Cusak is suffering and is like, "oh crap." I would want to do this for lots of actors. Like dead ones, too. Like Jack Lemon. Is it just me, or would we leave Johnny Depp in the past and keep the current version?

To this, Jeff says, "That is the worst use of a time machine I have ever heard of." This makes me laugh and laugh.