We are all sick again. This is making Jeff and I question the whole daycare thing. Would having a nanny make them less sick? We are coughing and I had a fever yesterday. Hot, cold, hot, cold. Hot. The fever also gave me physical flashbacks to my hospital stay. Phantom c-section pains are no fun.

We have thought about getting a nanny in the past. I mean, paying for two babies to go to daycare costs more than a nanny would cost, money-wise. But the emotional issues involved with a nanny are too much for me to deal with right now. First, coming from a working class background, Jeff and I are not ready hire an employee. Who are we to have a nanny? Ya know? The other thing is that our apartment is small and messy and no place for two babies to spend their days.

So, we are all in the land of the sick again. It is getting old. I can only hope that this will end soon and we will all get better fast. In the past month, we have had both a stomach flu and a cold and now a nasty cough. Blah.

I have not been answering my emails. I will get back to that soon. As soon as things calm down some. I also can't get my home email at my new job... poop!

Oh! New thing to report. Anya has a great sense of humor. Whenever someone does something weird, she laughs and laughs. Last night, I was nebulizing Rachel (for her cough and wheezing) and Rachel kept turning her head into her carseat to get away. Anya laughed and laughed. Then Rachel would peek out at her and Anya would laugh some more. We also caught them making each other laugh the other day. Anya was sitting up in her crib and decided to fall back. This made Rachel burst out laughing. Then Anya did it again and again to make Rachel laugh. Then Rachel did it to make Anya laugh. It is just amazing that at 7 months old, their sense of humor have developed. There are many minutes in my life when I hate being a mother. I will not sugar coat it. I hate being sick and having to take care of babies at the same time. I hate the stress that having twins has put on my life. I hate not sleeping. But then there is always redemption. There is always a wonderful moment when someone laughs at something silly and it is all worth it. I just hope those moments increase as time goes by.

It seems like Anya has gained like a pound in the past two days. She is just gigantic. We having been calling her LunchBox. I know, mean. But so funny. Along those lines, Rachi has come to be known as Bento Box.

Ok. Sorry if I haven't emailed you back. I have been busy fighting germs. I will get back to you soon.