If I ever were the captian of a great ship, it is today. The air outside is cold and wet and the rain spits on you like it is jumping from waves. The cuffs of my pink courdory pants are wet and dirty and I like it that way. I kept trying to hail a cab this morning, so that I could get to work early. But they were all full. All little pods with people inside, traveling across the ocean, while I am the captain of my own little vessel, navi navi the high seas. I felt like I was trying to hail a tug boat. After a while, I gave up. When I give up one thing, I usually give up all of them. So down my umbrella went. And I let the rain fall on me freely, like some kind of insane girl with pink and blue hair. Carrying an umbrella in a storm, rather than using it. This action made my panda ears ploppy today. Plop plop. The silliness of wearing Mary Janes in the rain soon dawned on me as my spotted socks began to chill with rain.

I am the captain of a great ship. I am the captain of a tiny boat. I am the captain of my future and my self.

I feel like those three lines are the answers to give all people when they have problems. I wish someone would have told me those things when I was, say, 16. I wish someone would have told me those things at 24. And now at 31, I tell myself and you and we all can be the captain.

I almost wrote those 3 lines are the answers to give all girls who have problems. But, I thought about it and realized that we are so beyond that. I am so beyond that. Boys are just as worthy of advice as girls. It is funny because while I know that mostly females read my blog, it is boys who fill my real day to day life. That is a tangent. Thank you for following me on it.